Melancholia

Lately, I’ve been sleeping in, staying up late,

Finding times to quiet my self-hate.

Unless it’s poetic, in which I revel in it,

Existential crisis when I feel pathetic.

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A familiar feeling is sadness,

And comfort in familiarity is even sadder.

I have to make it beautiful,

Find a tune and some lyrics to give my feelings

A grandiose meaning.

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Use words like “melancholia”, and describe

Myself like a character.

Make myself important,

Revel in mysteries,

Pretend I have tragic history,

Attempt to explain away this misery.