Sinking Feeling

It happened again tonight.

I was left alone around 3 am,

When my dark thoughts were my only friends.

Thoughts of sadness, of loneliness,

Of “why do I exist” ness. 

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I focus on what matters to center myself, my breath,

I tap into my emotional wealth. 

I tether myself to that small boat,

My happiness I beg to stay afloat.

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I laugh at myself because I think,

My mind is as vast and unforgiving as the sea.

Will I be alone when I sink?